Author and Perfecter of my faith!

just now as i enter into my bathroom for shower, the moment when i close the door, i suddenly felt like worshiping God. It was REALLY random. The song “Through it all” came into my mind and i just started worshiping God as i hang my shirts, and let water flow down my head.

As i continue singing my ‘love song’ to God, my heart was lightened up and refreshed. I dun know how to really describe it… but it just this strong desire that wells up in my heart, and just overflow as i sang the song out. Like a spring of love just overflowing out of my heart! And as i sang, i was so reminded of how beautiful God is, how faithful He really am to me, how loving He truly is in my life, and every single good thing about Him. Sounds cliche, i know. But it was how i really felt!

As i worship and remain in His presence, soon i felt that the lyrics of the song are just SOOOOOOOOO LIMITED!

IT SIMPLY IS SOOOOOOOO NOT ENOUGH TO DESCRIBE THE TRUE WORTH OF GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

So i just started singing to Him everything that comes from my heart. Everything and anything that i can think of to describe God and how much i love and value Him! O… SO SHIOK MAN! Literally singing like no one business; singing like no tomorrow! haha. That’s’s true freedom in Christ man!

After worshiping God, i continue to remain in His presence. I wanted to talk to Him and hear Him speak. And as i pray, i realized that these few days, i seems to have neglected God. I was reminded of the nights that as i was reading the bible and praying to Him, i found myself ended up on the bed after few hours. Or i will do a quick and half- hearted QT with Him. Man… am so ashamed of myself. But God placed another song in my mind, and i just sing it out. As i sang the song ‘By Your Wonderous Love’ God just lifted my spirit up again and bring me back to His love and renew my heart with Him. I could approach him now with confidence and not shame; His love has washed me clean.

God also encouraged me by remind me through Hebrew 12:1-3

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. ²Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. ³Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”

It really touched me and strengthened my heart as i was rather worried about certain things about the group and my own life. It reminded me that if God were to start this race and this life for me, He would want me to complete it victoriously. And since it is HE who called me, it will also be HE who will see me through and guide me! I traded my worries with His faith. Now i am no longer worried about it. Instead, i walked out of my bathroom feeling so faith-filled and assured that God is truly here to fight “Through it all” with me “By His Wonderous Love”!

God help me!!!! thank you!

dance to express

the power of dance and music.

Look! Their every muscles speaks. amazing!

end of International Business!

today 8pm marks the end of one of my subject ‘International Business’!

and now i am counting down to the end of my studies!

2 more projects… 1 more presentation… 2 more papers…

And just 20 more days!!!

HAHAHA! HOLIDAYS… I AM COMING!!!!!!!!!!!! heee.

Judgement Day is here- NAPFA TEST!

Sit- ups- 34/ min

Standing Board Jump- 222cm

Sit and reach- 37/ min

Pull up- 5

Shutter run- 10.6s

2.4km run- max 12.30s

If you have not realized by now, these are the criteria for NAPFA Test silver award for 19yrs old!

As i was bathing, I was also counting down to NAPFA Test at 3pm! Gosh. I am so scared, honestly. The most fearful station would be the PULL- UP station and the 2.4km run.

Currently, i have improved from only 3 pull up to 4 pull ups. Thank god! But even though i have improved, but i am still 1 away!!!! Freaks! And for my 2.4km, i have been rather inconsistent in my timing, and i have been running at different locations.SO i really dun know how is it like for me tml!

But still God reminded me to really just trust in Him. I am trusting him to help me to pull the fifth pull-up with His strength, and giving me the extra stamina to complete the 2.4km with brilliant timing so that i can testify His faithfulness in my life! But of cos, i will CHOOSE to give thanks and not complain even if i did not get a silver, and in the end have to go in NS 2 months earlier. If it’s God’s will, so be it lor! SO pls pray for me if you see this post! thanks!

i’m holding on.

I think i mentioned it before. But as i was bathing just now, it just suddenly dawned upon me of the tons of things on my To- do list! freaks.

Academically speaking, as the semester is just 1 month away, and things are just getting crazier than ever before! EVERY WEEK (seriously, no joke) we have at least either 1 test or 1 project submission dateline to rush. And this is not including the tutorial questions we have to do. For many of our projects, we are still QUITE a distance away from completion. And the tests are driving nuts.

For ministry, having the unit split into 2 doesnt mean that i can slack liao lor! Even thou i  dun have to lead life group meetings, and have 2 great leaders under me that are doing a great job, There are still a number of things to overseer and plan. Most importantly is our next few months of directions and goals, and the transfer of grads to look into.

Man.. my head is getting BIGGER! woooooot! But i was reminded by God in His Word as well..

Isa 40:30-31

³⁰ Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

³¹ but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

So i am giving in to you Lord. Take me, guide, lead me. Help me thru this time of my life! God, be with me!

alrighty. I’m tired. Need to go sleep. By right, wanted 7am wake up. But now… hurhur 3:55am lo! Forget it. 9am then. Chaozz. God bless!  =)

new change= new growth!

today i bombed my unit with 2 bombs. The Fat Man and Little Boy! (names of the 2 atomic bombs?) haha.

1st bomb- the split of ED1

2nd bomb- grads transfer

To me, honestly, the splitting of ED1 was kind of like a…. ‘long waited day’. simply because the fact that we are able to split into 2 life groups means that WE HAVE GROWN!!!! YEAH!

Different people had many mixed feelings about the split of ED1. Some were normal and accepting, some were very shocked and taken back. While there were some who were rather upset, and affected by it.

Well, it’s ok. I understand. Because even for myself, there were mixed feelings within me too. There is a part of that was holding back of this idea, and a little uncertain of this decision. I guess it was the past experiences of ED1 splitting up that have left some seeds of doubt in my heart. It seems like whenever those times we have split, after a few months we will come together again as the ‘care groups’ have not enough support, and various other reasons. Thus, i have this part of people that is still uncertain about how things may work out.

However,  there is this GREAT GREAT part of me that i just refused to believe what my past experiences have planted in me! I refused to believe that history will repeat itself! I refused to believe that after splitting, the group will ‘cui’ and will be forced to merge back again! I refused to believe that life group will be any less fun and enjoyable with the split! C’MON MAN!!!  I JUST REFUSED TO BELIEVE IN THESE LIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT!I want to believe that this new change will bring about a new spurge of growth in the group!I choose to believe that this new change will motivate even more people to want to rise up to answer call of leadership! I believe fully that relationships will be built even deeper, and get even more bonded together! I believe that there will be a unstoppable, immeasurable amount of love, faith and fun among the groups! I believe that God will use the 2 life groups to reach out to great multitude of people in their schools! I believe that God is going to open the floodgates of heaven and pour down abundant blessings unto us all! I believe that God is going to send a new wave of revival in this 2 life groups, in ALL the schools, in Ed1, in East, and in the whole Yhope!!!! I believe in you god!

At the end of the day, if you ask me will the whole change really spark off so much growth… honestly, i dun know. Yes, i maybe uncertain. But trust me. I am crystal clear that as we follow God’s guidance together as a group, God is on our side, and victory is OURS!

So come with me! Let’s see the many wonders that God is going to do in our group, and in our lives! We believe in you!

I trust in you, my Lord.
1 sam 17:47… “… the battle belongs to the Lord…”

a leader worth following?

i have been reading “The Next Generation Leader” for these 2 weeks, and I have been reminded of many different things about leadership and my personal life. Today, i was reading though the last few chapters, which focus on the topic of “Character”. And indeed, Leadership is really about character.

Opps. Not really.

To be a leader, you really dun need character. BUT… to be a leader that is WORTH following, then you must have character! It is really about who you are, what you think, and what you do when no one is looking. I guess this is the toughest in leadership. Well, at least for me.

This is especially true as you grow higher in the leadership ladder and as you grow older in church. You have more freedom to act, and people deem you as the ‘old- pherds’ aka ‘The Mature one’. So generally, people dun really come up to you often and ask you… “Hey! how are you with god? Are you doing well with God?
Not that they dun care, but because of the perception. And in these times, it’s really about personal character. It includes your inner thoughts, inner struggles, your personal decisions in daily life and the list goes on….

Someone said “As you grow old in God, the basic (devotions, QT etc) does not get any easier. It just get tougher. But, it also gets more beautiful”

With all my heart, i fully agree to it. It just never gets easier. It just gets tougher. It takes even more of me. But, it indeed just gets more beautiful and sweeter and sweeter and sweeter!

So god, will you guide me and help me in this long journey with you? I know you will. But Lord, strengthen my hands, my feet, my mind, my heart…. and everything of me! so that i can follow you all the days of my life. Nope, it’s not getting any easier. Yes, it’s really going to get tougher. But i know, god, the more i know you, the more i meet you, the more i live my life together with you…. it just gets more beautiful and more unforgetable, and *lkj2we(8n9ND8uda90(853$%657kjhds* (beyond words can describe!!!!!) WOOH!

just to end off this post with a quote that struck my heart so deeply. Really deep..

We are always ONE decision, ONE word, ONE reaction away from damaging what has taken YEARS to develop.

i finally went for dance class!

i am a happy man!!! haha. today i just went for 2 dance classes, and had like 2.5 hours of non stop dancing!!! WOOOH! Felt so good man! It has been around 2 weeks since i went for class. In fact, thinking back, i think this is my very first classes in 2010! =)

i went for the legendary gin’s class, which is one of the toughest class in town to many people. She is uber dope dope dope man! Anyway i finally decided to go for her class as i wanted to stretch myself even more’ see my skills level up as well! And indeed, it was tough. I had a tough time trying to catch all the steps, and to execute them well, getting the right timing etc. but i thank god in the end i managed to catch all the steps! yea! but just still trying to get the timing.

when for zaihar class right after that. Enjoyed his class as it was very my style… something that i liked- lyrical hip hop! woot!

I am convinced totally that as a dancer, i must be faithful with this gift that god have given to me. And that means i must be faithful in developing it! I know that CBF is nearing, and this last semester is crazy, but i still want to try my best to go at least 1 class weekly. Ok. let me be clear on this- dance class is not a MUST to develop my dance. I can still prac at home. But it does help me to train my discipline, and train my mind in picking up steps faster and faster.

I am grateful for how i am improved through 2009. Actually, i didnt realized that i have improved much. Really. But thanks to the people around me who have been affirming my improvements, encouraging me to dance to my best, and giving me many opportunities to serve in Ydance!  As a result, i really saw myself improving in dance, gaining more confidence, and helping me feel even closer to God. Thank you god. Thanks for this wonderful gift you have given to me. Use me more Jesus.

let’s dance for Jesus =D

i really want to blog.

i really want to blog. but my mind is clouded with few things. spirit is willing. body is not. ha.freaks. hate it.

lyrical hip hop. love it =P

SYTYCD season 6:

Ashleigh & Jakob- Watcha Say

(For storyline, watch the 1st video. For better quality of dance, watch the 2nd video.) enjoy =)