Of cos I wan neither. Afterall, u brought me thru quite some ups and downs and now finally staying out. And u wanna bring me back to stay in?? Lol.

Idk what’s the plans. But I know u have a plan. May ur will be done. Tats my prayer. Of cos I would hate to stay in, but if that is wat u wan, ok. I’ll do it then

Luke 9:23-24
If we wan our life, we got to first lose it. We gonna keep losing the need to keep up our life, keeping so much achievements and temp stuff. Instead, we gonna focus on the eternal things. We gonna keep losing these so that god can give us truly what’s impt!

it sets me thinking about why is my life now ‘hidden with’ Christ. i didnt make much sense in the beginning. i understood the dying and raising with God. But not about my life being hidden with god. But as i read on, i slowly make sense.

my life hidden with god= my livelihood comes from Him. I dun just live off myself, but i live off Him whom my life belong to! Just like a kidnapper! haha. when i am hidden with someone, i live off that person, my life becomes dependent on him. so in the same way, as i died with Christ, my life is in him. and tat also comes with great security isnt it?i mean if my money is with someone i know that is safe, i would be very secure and assured! and now it is with jesus! it’s like security  times 2!

—– my life in Christ is a secure one, and dependent on Him! i dun just live by my own strength, but my your grace and strength! =D

v5-7:
Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry.  Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived.

– have died. so have own self. need to stop doing what i am doing and really live in God. My heart has become callous. it’s just like my feet! when there is too much friction, like my own sinful desire and god’s intention, and when i dun obey, that part of me just become more and more callous and harden. If i dun change, a corn is going develop and it’s gonna be really painful!!! Arghh… but sometimes… and many times in fact, i really dun know how to fight it. i feel helpless. but god, i live IN you, and is HIDDEN in you, and u live IN me. so by ur strength and by ur grace… god, u will help me!  amen!

Though i think my group did not end with a great success (shadowed by a late submission and a little disappointing presentation), we end it with a nice lunch at Phin’s@TM.(w/o jasper!) But really thank god for all these wonderful group members in my life!

1. Kelly

Thanks for your full commitment and devotion to all the projects during this 1 year. If i am not wrong, you are most of time on time for deadline. lol. And thanks for giving your best to all your individual parts of the projects, and given willing to help out other members when they needealsd help. Would o like to apologize as i know there were times which i think i have disappointed you. =/ But i truly enjoyed the times we had project discussion together and we lame the hell out of one another!!! hahaha. So thank you gal!

2. Wai Leong

Hey ‘xiong- tai’! ahhaha. Just want to take this chance to say a big thank you as well! Thanks for all that you have done and gave in this 1 year of projects. Though you may be rather quiet, but you always gives your best in task given to you! And thanks for being such a thoughtful person. You would always spare a thoughts for the people around you, for example you would always try to make sure that everyone will have a seat in canteen or in class. You will always wait for us to start the meal as well. So i thank you for sparing a thought for us, your friends.

3. Jasper

Hey Jas! Thanks for this 1 year of working together. thanks for trying to do what you can in the midst of your work. I know it is not easy to cope with work, and studies and projects at the same time. Especially in this last sem. haha. Things were just going crazy man! But still thanks for all that you ahve done and gave into the group! And most imptantly… THANKS FOR YOUR BMW!!!!!! hahahha. jkjk. but thanks for driving us around with ur uber shiok car! haha thanks.

4. Yanyu

Hey Rabbit! or… H.M.? hahaha. Anyway just want to thank you for all that you have done for the group! Thanks for always being there to contribute good ideas and sparring of thoughts. Thanks for helping to facilitate the group sharing as well. And thanks for supporting me in times when I was not at my best conditions. Thanks for your presence. Because where ever you are, you will have some sort of entertainment such as Deal, or random games! haha  thanks!

5. Jeslin

Hey jes (the JJs hahahaha) Thanks for your devotion into the projects for the past 1 year. And if i am not wrong, it seems to me that almost every time, you are the one that compile everything. This itself is not an easy task le. You still have to wait for people to send in, and chase them if they haven send in.haha. Thanks for the BEING the entertainment in the group as well! You never fail to make me amused by you man. haha thanks for all you have done!

At the end of the day, thanks for all that you guys have done for the group. And i am proud to be able to serve along side with you guys man! Let’s do well for our last 2 papers and finish the race well man!!! JIAYOU!!!! =)

As i continue singing my ‘love song’ to God, my heart was lightened up and refreshed. I dun know how to really describe it… but it just this strong desire that wells up in my heart, and just overflow as i sang the song out. Like a spring of love just overflowing out of my heart! And as i sang, i was so reminded of how beautiful God is, how faithful He really am to me, how loving He truly is in my life, and every single good thing about Him. Sounds cliche, i know. But it was how i really felt!

As i worship and remain in His presence, soon i felt that the lyrics of the song are just SOOOOOOOOO LIMITED!

IT SIMPLY IS SOOOOOOOO NOT ENOUGH TO DESCRIBE THE TRUE WORTH OF GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!

So i just started singing to Him everything that comes from my heart. Everything and anything that i can think of to describe God and how much i love and value Him! O… SO SHIOK MAN! Literally singing like no one business; singing like no tomorrow! haha. That’s's true freedom in Christ man!

After worshiping God, i continue to remain in His presence. I wanted to talk to Him and hear Him speak. And as i pray, i realized that these few days, i seems to have neglected God. I was reminded of the nights that as i was reading the bible and praying to Him, i found myself ended up on the bed after few hours. Or i will do a quick and half- hearted QT with Him. Man… am so ashamed of myself. But God placed another song in my mind, and i just sing it out. As i sang the song ‘By Your Wonderous Love’ God just lifted my spirit up again and bring me back to His love and renew my heart with Him. I could approach him now with confidence and not shame; His love has washed me clean.

God also encouraged me by remind me through Hebrew 12:1-3

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. ²Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. ³Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”

It really touched me and strengthened my heart as i was rather worried about certain things about the group and my own life. It reminded me that if God were to start this race and this life for me, He would want me to complete it victoriously. And since it is HE who called me, it will also be HE who will see me through and guide me! I traded my worries with His faith. Now i am no longer worried about it. Instead, i walked out of my bathroom feeling so faith-filled and assured that God is truly here to fight “Through it all” with me “By His Wonderous Love”!

God help me!!!! thank you!

the power of dance and music.

Look! Their every muscles speaks. amazing!

and now i am counting down to the end of my studies!

2 more projects… 1 more presentation… 2 more papers…

And just 20 more days!!!

HAHAHA! HOLIDAYS… I AM COMING!!!!!!!!!!!! heee.

Standing Board Jump- 222cm

Sit and reach- 37/ min

Pull up- 5

Shutter run- 10.6s

2.4km run- max 12.30s

If you have not realized by now, these are the criteria for NAPFA Test silver award for 19yrs old!

As i was bathing, I was also counting down to NAPFA Test at 3pm! Gosh. I am so scared, honestly. The most fearful station would be the PULL- UP station and the 2.4km run.

Currently, i have improved from only 3 pull up to 4 pull ups. Thank god! But even though i have improved, but i am still 1 away!!!! Freaks! And for my 2.4km, i have been rather inconsistent in my timing, and i have been running at different locations.SO i really dun know how is it like for me tml!

But still God reminded me to really just trust in Him. I am trusting him to help me to pull the fifth pull-up with His strength, and giving me the extra stamina to complete the 2.4km with brilliant timing so that i can testify His faithfulness in my life! But of cos, i will CHOOSE to give thanks and not complain even if i did not get a silver, and in the end have to go in NS 2 months earlier. If it’s God’s will, so be it lor! SO pls pray for me if you see this post! thanks!

]]> http://ephraimt3ng.wordpress.com/2010/01/26/judgement-day-is-here-napfa-test/feed/ 0 ephraimtengyq http://ephraimt3ng.wordpress.com/2010/01/19/im-holding-on/ http://ephraimt3ng.wordpress.com/2010/01/19/im-holding-on/#comments Mon, 18 Jan 2010 19:46:11 +0000 ephraimtengyq http://ephraimt3ng.wordpress.com/?p=198 ]]> I think i mentioned it before. But as i was bathing just now, it just suddenly dawned upon me of the tons of things on my To- do list! freaks.

Academically speaking, as the semester is just 1 month away, and things are just getting crazier than ever before! EVERY WEEK (seriously, no joke) we have at least either 1 test or 1 project submission dateline to rush. And this is not including the tutorial questions we have to do. For many of our projects, we are still QUITE a distance away from completion. And the tests are driving nuts.

For ministry, having the unit split into 2 doesnt mean that i can slack liao lor! Even thou i  dun have to lead life group meetings, and have 2 great leaders under me that are doing a great job, There are still a number of things to overseer and plan. Most importantly is our next few months of directions and goals, and the transfer of grads to look into.

Man.. my head is getting BIGGER! woooooot! But i was reminded by God in His Word as well..

Isa 40:30-31

³⁰ Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

³¹ but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

So i am giving in to you Lord. Take me, guide, lead me. Help me thru this time of my life! God, be with me!

alrighty. I’m tired. Need to go sleep. By right, wanted 7am wake up. But now… hurhur 3:55am lo! Forget it. 9am then. Chaozz. God bless!  =)

1st bomb- the split of ED1

2nd bomb- grads transfer

To me, honestly, the splitting of ED1 was kind of like a…. ‘long waited day’. simply because the fact that we are able to split into 2 life groups means that WE HAVE GROWN!!!! YEAH!

Different people had many mixed feelings about the split of ED1. Some were normal and accepting, some were very shocked and taken back. While there were some who were rather upset, and affected by it.

Well, it’s ok. I understand. Because even for myself, there were mixed feelings within me too. There is a part of that was holding back of this idea, and a little uncertain of this decision. I guess it was the past experiences of ED1 splitting up that have left some seeds of doubt in my heart. It seems like whenever those times we have split, after a few months we will come together again as the ‘care groups’ have not enough support, and various other reasons. Thus, i have this part of people that is still uncertain about how things may work out.

However,  there is this GREAT GREAT part of me that i just refused to believe what my past experiences have planted in me! I refused to believe that history will repeat itself! I refused to believe that after splitting, the group will ‘cui’ and will be forced to merge back again! I refused to believe that life group will be any less fun and enjoyable with the split! C’MON MAN!!!  I JUST REFUSED TO BELIEVE IN THESE LIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT!I want to believe that this new change will bring about a new spurge of growth in the group!I choose to believe that this new change will motivate even more people to want to rise up to answer call of leadership! I believe fully that relationships will be built even deeper, and get even more bonded together! I believe that there will be a unstoppable, immeasurable amount of love, faith and fun among the groups! I believe that God will use the 2 life groups to reach out to great multitude of people in their schools! I believe that God is going to open the floodgates of heaven and pour down abundant blessings unto us all! I believe that God is going to send a new wave of revival in this 2 life groups, in ALL the schools, in Ed1, in East, and in the whole Yhope!!!! I believe in you god!

At the end of the day, if you ask me will the whole change really spark off so much growth… honestly, i dun know. Yes, i maybe uncertain. But trust me. I am crystal clear that as we follow God’s guidance together as a group, God is on our side, and victory is OURS!

So come with me! Let’s see the many wonders that God is going to do in our group, and in our lives! We believe in you!

I trust in you, my Lord.
1 sam 17:47… “… the battle belongs to the Lord…”